i'm really tired from being out at Pride festival today (which i'll make a lil post about later on)... but to be totally honest, i can't stop thinking about my person...
one of my biggest goals right now is trying to save up money so i can do some language studying in Japan. when i was a teenager, i took a little bit of Japanese language in school (even though I really wanted to do Italian, but i had to swap because of conflicting class periods). and it turned out i would try to use it as i got really into BEMANI and pop'n. so i have some understanding of the language, but it's pretty broken... at a certain point, i had just stopped using it completely and gave up on studying.
as i'm beginning to try and use my tiny lil understanding of Japanese to help translate some materials for archiving efforts, it seems natural that i want to start studying the language properly again, right? but to be completely honesty, my main motivator in going to Japan and learning the language is so that i can be with my zucchini. if you're not sure what "zucchini" means in this context, i essentially mean my partner.
i'm aroace, but i am still apart of a partnership. i'll have to talk about it some other day, but there is a term for this, called a Queer Platonic Relationship. i would regard them my platonic soulmate... i think about them a lot, if not every single day. every time i go out and do something fun especially, i think about how fun it might be to take them with me. we converse a lot by using translation. they use one to translate to English and to be able to read my English messages.. i wouldn't mind using translation in person, even if it looked silly.. but finally learning Japanese would just benefit me more.
blah!! all that aside though, i just wanted to make more of a mushy post because i am always thinking about them.. i'm a little sad because they've been feeling a lil tough about our separation.. i want to be with them, they're the only real person i would think about being with, and i want to be happy with 'em.. i just don't make enough money, so saving will take awhile... someone pay me some 10k at least, and i'll feel set to go, haha.. maybe i'll make another mushy blog post where i am talking about our bond in depth.. hehe, idk..
